Showing posts with label readings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label readings. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Week 26: Modern Paganism book started

Related to Requirement:
#3 – Book Reviews
Required Reading:
 Our Own Druidry, p. 19 - 20 (Concerning the Reading of Books)
 Our Own Druidry, Appendix B, p. xiii (writing a book review)
 start on one book from the list of Pagan Revival titles at the ADF Website, A Recommended Reading List

I'm going to be reading "Drawing Down the Moon" by Margot Adler. Now, if only I could get the motivation to read anything other than fanfiction. I actually heard Ms. Adler's obituary on NPR this morning, she died yesterday.

Not going to lie, wish I could have a study group again for this. Motivation in numbers.

My, incredibly crappy, essay for the Indo-European Studies book below. I know I can do better than this. Just need to actually do better.

Cynthia Eller’s study of the archaeological basis for Matriarchal prehistory, The Myth of Matriarchal Prehistory, attempts, and mostly succeeds, at tearing the pre-historical utopia myth from its foundations. The basic theory of matriarchal prehistory is that before the invention of writing and post-subsistence agriculture, there was a widespread culture that worshiped a female deity and whose clans/ tribes were headed by women held in great respect. These tribes had a greater degree of women’s superiority than seen since. As women were in charge, lives were long and peaceful with no war and lived in harmony with nature. All this came crashing down with either the Kurgan from the Russian-Ukrainian steppes or the Semites from the middle east invaded between 4000 and 3000 BCE, bringing with them war, a male dominated religion, and the patriarchy. This myth fails to make a convincing case in so many ways it is amazing that Eller managed to fit as much as she did in the text. Eller barely mentions the social justice issues that arise from such a reading of the archaeological record. Matriarchal Prehistory can easily be used to condemn homo-sexuality, deny the existence and experience of *trans, and uphold some of the most egregious acts of misogyny in the western world.
The main thrust of Eller’s critique is the refusal of the adherents of the theory to consider all the evidence available is an utter failure of their methods. Theories should be fit to the evidence, not evidence to fit the theory. Most of the archaeological evidence from the period in question is indeterminate at best. Looking at the decorations and figurines, Matriarchal Prehistory proponents see breasts and vaginas everywhere. They have expanded the definition of what ‘counts’ as a vagina in art so much that the term is near meaningless (Eller 123). Any diagonal, wavy, straight, or intersecting line is considered to be a symbol of the the Goddess’ womb. Unfortunately, this expanded definition includes every way of making a line.
The best argument the Matriarchal Prehistorians can make is there was a sudden influx of the Kurgan culture from the Russian-Ukrainian steppes. The Kurgan certain left their mark on the languages of the region. However, language does not leave physical traces in its wake to detail the circumstances of its spread. While it is possible that the Kurgan came swarming out of the steppes bent on conquest as the Huns did a millennia later, there is no evidence that would lead only to that conclusion. No archaeological digs have shown any of the conditions that are present when a violent invasion occurs: famine, population explosion, or massive outbreak of natural disasters. There is simply no reason to suppose that the Kurgan invaded instead of a slow, peaceful migration.
Ultimately, the matriarchal prehistory argument is pleading for a special case. Despite not having convincing evidence, they believe that ‘Old Europe’ must have been matriarchal in the distant past. However, reality does not force itself to conform to expectations. By the year 4000 BCE, cities and kingdoms were already being formed in Africa and the Middle East- with no sign of a matriarchal society. Why Europe was so ‘enlightened’ as to have a matriarchy while the rest of the world did not can never be explained without resorting to discredited and racist areas of historical study.

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Week 18: Personal Religion

Related to Requirement: 
#10 – Personal Religion;
#9 – Relationships to Kindred
Required Reading:  

  • Our Own Druidry, p. 19 (The Hearth Oath)  
  • Our Own Druidry, p. 123 – 128 (Personalizing Your Paganism)  
  • Our Own Druidry, p. xv – xvi (Appendix 1: Adapting the DP to Specific Ethnic Paths) 

Optional reading:  

  • Our Own Druidry, p. 62 – 74 (Hearth Cultures and High Days)  
  • Our Own Druidry, p. xvii – xxvii (Using the DP for Grove Building);  
  • Reintroducing Solitary Work into Your Life by Rev. Michael J Dangler <http://www.adf.org/articles/solitary/reintroducing-solitary-work.html>  
  • "Ratri" by Adhitin Ratrija <http://www.adf.org/articles/gods-and-spirits/vedic/ratri.html>  
  • "The Case for Choosing a Pantheon" by Ian Corrigan <http://www.adf.org/articles/gods-and-spirits/general/case-for-choosing-a-pantheon.html>  
  • "Dual Trad Daily Devotionals" by Tanrinia, <http://www.adf.org/members/training/dp/articles/dual-trad-devotions.html> 

I've fallen frightfully behind over the past month on this. Just have had absolutely no motivation to work on anything more complicated than my sewing. I suppose at least part of it is that May is always really busy and I feel like I should have been out playing at the local ren faire. Instead, I've been lazing, gardening, and reading.

Answers to Week 1 are Here.
Most of my answers are still the same.  The study group has pretty much fallen apart so I'm doing it on my own anyway, which I was trying to avoid, but much of everything else is the same.

Except not really. I still have no more idea now how to meditate than I did 21 weeks ago. The Daily Devotionals are teaching me how to be at peace with myself and the world for about 20 minutes a day, but it's not really what I expect meditation to teach me. Or maybe I'm just comparing too much.

I certainly need to just learn to trust the Kindreds and my own intuition. Even if my conscious mind is freaking out, I was led to this path and I think I need to walk it a while. I have no more idea now if I'll stay with ADF long term or just for a while, but this is my home for a while longer. I

First Oath
I made a point of my first oath being things that I could do. Not necessarily without stretching, but I didn't want to set my obligations so high that I would fail more often than I succeeded. I am seeking the Gods, I am doing my best to be charitable and kind, and I am learning. I'm not teaching yet, but that will come in time.

Hearth Culture
I'm sticking with Norse for my personal hearth. Most of my hobbies right now are leaning that way and this way all my research will feed back into itself. My I-E studies book hasn't changed how I feel about any of the cultures (I'm not sure that my book should even be listed as IE Studies), but that also wasn't its goal. I do want/need to re-work my devotional a bit to make it fit Norse better, but right now is not the time.

Patron/ Matron
Oh, I wish. I hear the same silence that I always have from that corner. I may have felt something like tingles when I was planning the Beltane ritual, but those left as soon as the ritual was over. I'm just doing daily offerings to the Deities as a whole and Freyja and Joerd (friend is seeking help in conceiving). Its a lot like being at Camp Half-Blood: eventually someone will claim you, but in the mean time, hang out and do the best you can.




Monday, March 10, 2014

Week 8: Meditation and Mental Training

Related to Requirement: #6 – Mental Training
Required Reading:
  • Our Own Druidry, p. 93 - 99 (Druid Mental Training) 
Optional Resources:
Personal Choices:

I've been expecting this to be a hard part of working on DP, and so far, I'm not seeing anything that changes my mind about that.

I do think switching back and forth between the Anywhere Devotional and meditation will work well for me. Well, as long as i can resist setting my house on fire.  However, the second go run through Saturday morning was much better than the one last Wednesday.  So it might just take practice.

I'm investigating a new (to me?) form of divination for the devotionals.  I'm not looking to replace the more traditional forms of Rune or Ogham reading, however, those are both a bit more than I can manage on short notice.  Particularly since I don't have a good set of runes made up yet.  I'm keeping those for formal occasions and will switch over to runes more often when I have a set made up.

Somewhere, I read about iPod (or music?) divination. Essentially, when you reach the part of your rite where you would normally do your standard divination technique, you put your mp3 player/ full library/ iPod/ phone/ whatever you listen to music on and have handy on full random and the first song that plays is your answer.  In my head, while this is easier to cheat/ force the answer you  want (you do get to choose what songs are available), you can do that with runes/ ogham/ tarot too.  Anymore, your phone is going to be as closely attuned to you as any tarot deck.  Most people (certainly I) have my phone with me at all times, normally in my pocket. At any rate, this works for me for right now and is likely to be more convenient in the mornings.

I am going to put together a string of prayer beads. Or rather, a physical representation of the Core Order of Ritual so I have an easier time keeping track of where I am. I know what i want to use for Earth Mother, Gatekeeper, and Noble Ones, I just need to find beads that both visually and texturally represent the other beings and steps.  I have a feeling this is just going to involve wandering into a beading store and seeing what i can find.

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The weather is finally turning nice enough that I can be outside without it hurting.  I like this A LOT. I've got a bunch of outside projects to do (like... setting the back fence back upright.) so I should be able to spend my assigned hour outside this week.  And probably for the next several months as well.

I had every intention of spending this last weekend working on my review for my IE book.  Instead, I went car shopping with my sister and her partner, antiquing with my parents, split a few bottles of wine with my best friends, lunch for Gma's birthday, and then watching my cat terrorizing my mom's chickens while discussing home improvements and which need to happen regardless of divorce settlement and which need to wait.  Not a whole lot of time to sit down and write.

I also still need to finish up the Maitag rite.  I know which deities go where I think, so now just the plug and chug part.  I should be able to get that done... this week?  Maybe?  I really wish March wasn't so busy. Because I also need to find a weekend to make runes before Maitag. 

I'm publishing this before I freakout more about time and not enough and plans.





Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Library Building

I'm starting to gather sources and other information regarding my chosen Hearth culture.  It looks like I might have to re-build a great deal of my library from scratch, so this will be a living document that will likely be updated as I discover new books and purchase others.

Wanted
Currently owned


Indo-European Studies:

  • The Myth of Matriarchal PreHistory (DP approved)
  • Comparative Mythology
  • A History of Pagan Europe
Norse Mythology sources:  
General Mythology sources: 
  • Legends and Sagas at Sacred Texts.com.  Site also has sources for just about anything else you could possibly want for mythology/ religion/ ancient wisdom/ etc.  Looks like it'd be a good way to waste a couple days.
Modern Paganism:
  • Drawing Down the Moon (DP approved)
  • The Druidry Handbook
Meditation/ Mental Discipline:
  • Mindful Knitting: Inviting Contemplative Practice to the Craft
Divination/ Omens
  • Futhark
  • The Runes Workbook
  • Ogam: weaving Word Wisdom



Week 7: Creating the Home Shrine

Related to Requirement: #4 – Home Shrine
Required Reading:

  • Our Own Druidry: p. 91 - 96 (Personal Work) 86-100

Optional Reading:

Personal Reading:

I've had a home shrine for several years now, but I've never really been happy with it.  I like being able to have space to actually create charms and whatnot on my altar and, particularly once my now ex and I combined altars, there was no room for much of anything, let alone oils and beads and cording and mortar/ pestle and all the other necessary supplies.  Accordingly, I'm pretty much starting over on altar organization.  

I have a wooden bowl to use as a Well.  A stone oil lamp for the Fire (not the company I got mine from, but same style).  Several incense burners and oil diffusers.  The only thing I really need is something to act as the Tree.  I've been using a cedar branch (trimmed, de-barked, and sanded), but I have that branch for a reason and will need to find a different option.  I'm hoping now that spring is coming, I'll be able to find a house plant that is both non-toxic to cats and can withstand benign neglect.  I also want to find something else to use as offering bowls instead of either a) my mortar or b) a stacking coffee cup.  

I'll be moving my altar upstairs to my bedroom later today and will thus be able to get decent light and photos.  I might keep a mini-altar downstairs in the library using some of the duplicates that I have, but I'm not sure off hand.  Something about open flame on a bookshelf seems... bad. I like the idea of having a smaller brazier and whatnot in the kitchen while I'm cooking dinner, but counter-space is at a premium right now.  So even something as small as that could be problematic (also, see cat and curious).  

Part of me really wants to go back to using the top of my dresser as an altar instead of the tv stand that I'm currently using.  However, my dresser is rather tall, making sitting in front of it a problem and I also tend to just deposit stuff on it- socks missing mates, pocket junk, my jewelry box, borrowed books... That's not really a good habit to have for your altar.  At least the tv stand has built in storage and is small enough that the normal altar clutter is more than enough to make adding mundane junk require thought.  Yes, there is the option of just becoming a better housekeeper, but lets keep things reasonable.

Existing Altar
I got the altar moved upstairs.

Currently: stone oil lamp, cedar branch held upright in a mason jar with some sand, turned walnut bowl; basic incense burner with... some sort... of incense in it; strand of amethyst chip beads surrounding a polished piece of citron.

Inside the cabinet is incense, candles, oils, altar cloths (i try to change them out with the seasons), assorted other supplies.  I have a basket containing polished stones to use as offerings and a second (smaller) bowl containing larger stones.  It's rather a disaster, so I'm not going to post a photo of it.

Monday, February 17, 2014

Week 6: first book started: I-E Studies

Week 6: first book started: I-E Studies
Related to Requirement: #3 – Book Reviews
Required Reading:

  • Our Own Druidry, p. 19 - 20 13-14(Concerning the Reading of Books) 
  • Our Own Druidry, Appendix B, p. xiii (writing a book review) 
  • Start on one book from the list of IE titles at the ADF Website, A Recommended Reading List
All the books I'm reading were chosen by my ability to order them through work and thus, payroll deduct the cost.  Also, no shipping.  There are a few other books that I want to read, but they'll need to wait a bit.

For the I-E studies requirement, I'm reading The Myth of Matriarchal Prehistory.  Since I was unaware that this is a thing, this should be interesting.  I totally get the urge to assume a pre-Christian utopia... but that's just not borne out by the sagas and archaeological evidence.  There is some evidence that suggests that relationships were more egalitarian in some areas than they were after conversion, however, that is far from universal and not the same as equal (or even not a patriarchy.)

I need to locate my notes from a couple of classes.  For additional background and so I feel like I can properly talk about all this.  Because what's the point of having a history degree if you can't use it for stuff? And this and proving that I don't /really/ need to take the history class to be on cast at the local RenFaire are about all its good for!

At any rate, I guess I'm watching curling matches on tv tonight, as that lets me read and removes my laptop from being a distraction. 

UPDATE FROM WEEK 5:

I finally finished the readings from last week over my lunch break today.  I have not, however, spent any thing approaching enough time outside.

I accomplished next to nothing DP or Grove related over the weekend.  So I need to look up the appropriate Shining and Noble ones in Norse Mythology for the Maitag ritual this week.  And get my notebook organized again.

Starting a rune set will have to wait until after the olympics.  I have less than a week to knit 18 rows.  So... runes... week after next.  Which, conveniently enough, will be after I have my home altar set up to ADF standards and the same week that I officially start meditation.

Friday, February 14, 2014

Week 5: Nature Awareness 1

Related to Requirement #7: Nature Awareness 1
Required Reading:

  • Week 5 in WotY
  • Our Own Druidry p. 39-43 (Attunement to Nature and the Kindred) 

Optional Reading:


We got a massive snow storm here last week, dropping about 8.5 inches of snow.  Then 2 days later, we got another inch or so.  And it's been cold enough that what melt was happening... just refroze overnight.  It's just now getting consistantly over freezing during the day (barely... 33 today for the high), and is supposed to be in the 40s over the weekend, so I have hope I'll actually be able to be outside without wishing I was dead next week.

The upshot of this is that due to snow being most of the way up to my knees and over the tops of my boots... I've not hugged a tree for an hour this week.  I've done the readings, but... no outside. I am going home to my parent's this weekend, and should be able to spend some quality time in the park by their house.  Or go to the zoo with my nephew (I'm totally voting this! But not sure his mother will agree.)

If it's warm enough, I should at least be able to sit on Mom and Dad's porch swing and swing and knit and be.  My meditation work isn't going very well, so maybe being outside will help.


Saturday, January 25, 2014

Week 2: The First Oath

Week 2: The First Oath
1) Read Week 2: The First Oath in The ADF Dedicant Path Through the Wheel of the Year
2) Read p. 18-19 11-12 in Our Own Druidry
3) Read "Chanting the First Oath" https://www.adf.org/members/training/dp/articles/first-oath-chant.html
4) Read p. 8-12 of A Book of Pagan Prayer 

 I'm not really behind this week as much as I haven't had time to write anything up.  I'm doing the readings again tonight and, unless I come up with some brilliant insight that will make the First Oath in Our Own Druidry more personal, doing that as well.  I wonder if the Kindreds will mind if the representation of the tree is a mason jar with green onions growing in it.

I think I'm going to try to work out a knitting meditation.  Probably my intricate lace project won't work, but a garter stitch scarf will, or possibly a different shawl i'm working on.  And as I research this, it appears it is a thing.  I wish the local library had the book I've found, but I'll deal with the fact that it doesn't.  Now to decide if I want to own said book in physical or e-format.  Or maybe both?  I need to discuss this with the group anyway.  The requirement isn't exactly clear for what qualifies and what doesn't:
An essay or journal covering the Dedicant's personal experience of building mental discipline, through the use of meditation, trance, or other systematic techniques on a regular basis.
We're having a study group meeting soon, so I'll bring it up then.  Or in the study group on facebook.

I also need to smudge the house again.  Somehow I've picked up a ghost cat?  Or it certainly feels like a cat. Since I can be looking at Luna across the room and feel a cat moving behind me.


Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Week 1 with Study Group

I am going to the make-up initial study group meeting on Thursday, but here's what the group is doing this week (copied directly from the study group post):
At this point, I've done all the readings (at least once) and, obviously, started the blog/journal.  I'm going to do the OOD reading again tomorrow morning with the physical book.  While reading it as an ebook is more convenient for work, carrying it with me, and doing a quick read through, I don't feel that I'm going to do as well for actually learning unless I can take margin notes, highlight, etc.  I'm out of practice at this whole studying/ read for content/ notes thing as it is, learning a new way of doing it might not be the best plan either.

Journalling is probably going to be an amalgam (really, that's how that's spelled?) of physical paper journalling and online. If I do the notes and initial pass on paper, then I can clean it up and actually make it legible online.  Typing things makes me actually do the mental work to make scholarly sense of things anyway.

Right now, I expect the most difficult parts of this to be the regular meditation practice and creating a relationship with patrons.

I've been trying, off and on, for 20 years to start and maintain a daily meditation practice.  It never seems to go anywhere.  It might be time to admit defeat on the standard western meditation style of sitting crosslegged and clearing ones mind.  So back to the beginning, and what is probably the nerdiest calling to paganism ever: the Jedi calming breath. Which actually isn't Jedi at all, but vaguely Buddhist (I think?  The site I learned it from went defunct so long ago that the Internet Archive doesn't even know what I'm talking about).

Patrons/ Deities/ Gods.  I've never had a relationship with them.  Even when I was young enough to be going to church and sunday school every sunday... I never got it.  Never felt like there was a personal connection with any deity or spirit.  I spent most of late elementary and junior high searching for the force (ok, apparently Star Wars had a bigger impact on my personal development than I thought) before discovering paganism and Tolkien.

I might come back to this in the morning, I might not.  But right now, it's long past my bedtime and my cat is freaking out that we've not commenced the routine yet.
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